Date : Saturday, September 26, 2009
Time : 11:06 AM
Title : Resistance.

So i could not control and went out yesterday night :(
Damnit , came back in the morning , slept til 12 midnight .
Went out to eat and buy cig.
Another day wasted , now night again.
Whatthehell to do when everyone is sleeping and i am up doing nothing but computer , and tv.

Nevermind , i shall go and do some studying now.
This time , i will :D

Prelims really is screwing , hope O lvls is easier.

Labels: I love youuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Date : Thursday, September 24, 2009
Time : 5:57 AM
Title : Ton life.

been like few months since i post ?
lazy , super lazy .

prelims , i totally screwed it , perhaps not that much ,
just fail one subject , but the results aint satisfying ,
in fact , it just really suck.

many many many things seems to happen at one go ,
i cant take it :(
but persisting on kinda looks like my only choice ,
i dont wish to continue leading this type of miserable life .

been ton-ing for consecutively two weeks , no life , but i like :D
perhaps because of that particular one.
made a new friend , idiot called watermelon ,
i dont know why he like to have this stupid name .
hehe.

home is still the best , but , sometimes things really piss me off til going home seems like a hard stuff , or a disliking thing.

friends kept me company through my boring times , i fell in love with a girl .
but we are not together.

since when i had a long-lasting relationship , i keep telling myself i would change , and i would change but nothing changes.

so much i need you , so much i cant get you .
isnt that a fucked up thing?

now is 9.03pm , i am thinking whether i should skip school tomorrow and ton out with friends but it would be boring night again , and yet temptations are hard to resist , and you would be there , i dont know why you would like him , but i cant change ur feelings nor can i force you. maybe if things really go well , then good , i dont mind . being a couple with my brother would be a good thing too. ^^

maybe i should just stay at home , you and him would have so much fun (:
goodnight , i want to do some self-study , come on , let me resist all this going out !

tonight gonna be a good night , cause tonight gonna be a good good night :D

Labels: I want to control myself .